Why I prefer plants to people
It may surprise those who have met me professionally, but in my personal life I really am quite a shy person. I find myself in new groups of people observing rather than participating, talking one on one rather than joining a crowd, and just generally keeping myself to myself. Not everyone understands or accepts this. Some people see me as stand offish, others forget I exist, and some think I have issues which is why I keep myself away. There could be some truth in that last one.
And lately there has been a lot of conversation about neurodiversity and I do wonder if perhaps there is some influence there, but to be honest I have simply always classified myself as a ‘Sensitive’.
A Sensitive is someone is able to perceive the subtlety of energy in a myriad of different ways. And as a sensitive, especially a clairvoyant, I often find myself seeing how the energy runs in a person, group and place. Sometimes the energy runs beautifully and the place this happens the most is in ceremony. Yet other times the energy is a little bit on the dodgy side. So this makes me cautious and observant.
The reason for my cautious observance is people. The concept of healing, whether emotionally, mentally or spiritually is still new to a lot of people, and those who are exploring it are all on the journey rather than having reached the destination - the destination being enlightenment. Even my most beloved and respected mentors and teachers have over the years shown themselves to be positively human. And I am no exception.
But as a sensitive I find humans tiring. I mean I strive to love and accept all, but we are blinking complicated beings, all our feelings and thoughts all jumbled into ourself that make up our identity, and then a bunch of us get together and create the collective group identity.
Ugh…..what a lot of extra information for me to process. Maybe I am just getting older!
Whereas plants and trees, now there is such beauty there. Nature does not overcomplicate. It simple is. In that moment, no thought of the past or the future. Essentially without all the inner noise a human makes. So what I find with the plants and trees is peace and quiet.
Nothing to listen to but Spirit.